From the Sound of You

The party peaked as the dawn broke. The sun continued to lift and pull my feelings to surface with every minute. The drugs I took almost an hour ago was nudging my heart open and pushing my limbs down with the palpating weight of love. I left the dance floor and walked slowly towards the field of yellow wildflowers that seemed to blanket the small valley east of the dance floor. During the evening I had no idea that this beautiful field even existed. I walked faster through the flowers making pavements. I felt as if I was running and my fingers were loose and aching with an urge to hold onto something. My eyes began to roll back into my head like slow motion, it felt so good, like masturbation when you really take your time.

“Matilda wait!” I heard in a distance. I opened my eyes and turned around, I hadn’t realized that I had been walking with my eyes closed. Benjamin ran up to me as I was far into this field and far off from everyone and everything. I could hear the music in the distance and then it was suddenly quiet. “Where are you going?” he said. “I don’t know, I feel really good though.” I said carefully. “Oh, I thought something was wrong” he said. “Not at all, I just had to get away for a moment.” His eyes were so clear and olive with a hint of grey & brown. His heart was peeled open as was mine. “You’re spontaneous and lovely” he said. My heart was so full of possibility that I didn’t flinch at the compliment but rather reciprocated with “No, YOU are.” From where we were standing, no one could really see us as I had walked around a bend of the hill. It was just me, him, the wildflowers and a distant beat. I was trying to think about what was going to happen next because I really wanted to kiss him but I didn’t want to be a slut. How could I be a slut though? It felt more then just mere attraction. I felt a connection with him. The kind where you don’t say words but look in the eyes and know. The kind where I wouldn’t need to see him everyday and would be okay. The connection that could take him away from me for 17 years and I would still know him. I am thinking these things and then I am saying “No, YOU are beautiful”.

Benjamin walked up to me with a quiet stare. I could feel his heat and everything that he was feeling as it was everything I was feeling. I looked up at his face and every hair was messy and placed perfect. I wanted to touch him and without thinking I stroked the side of his face. His lips were blush tender wet and the sunlight coming over the mountainside touched upon them with a delicacy that was pulling me out of my skin. I ached to press my mouth to his. I think he knew this because he smiled as I thought it and all this quiet drug induced intensity made me shy and I then said “I have to pee”. “I do too” he said. I turned around and bounced off a few steps and found a place to do my business. He had his back toward me and I could see him peeing from where I was. Dirty thoughts rushed through me as I squat like a rabbit. I thought of me on my knees looking up at him. His hands with his sleeve pulled over the palm cupping the side of my face as I wrap my mouth around him. I am thinking this like a dirty girl intoxicated in a field of flowers peeing. With this release I felt my ecstasy amplify. As I was finished and I stood up Benjamin had already walked over to me.

He grabbed me and pulled me down onto the throw of wildflowers, yellow all around us now. His hands were warm and big as he combed the side of my hair with his big hands and kissed my bottom lip, then neck. Everything about him was consuming and I surrendered my self esteem, I wasn’t shy anymore for him. I was full with yellow desire. We rolled around and pushed and pulled against each other. Breathing lovely sounds in the quiet and electronic vibrations in the distance. My panties still around my thighs I lay on my back and giggled and found my hands moving between his legs. "What are you doing" I am saying in my head but his eyes were closed and I am so magnetic and unstoppable. He put his hands over my hands as I propped myself up on my knees and pushed his torso down with my forehead. All I felt was the wave of euphoric warmth as I devoured his sex with my mouth. Then I sinuously rolled a kiss to his mouth. “I want to know you for a long time with nothing suffocating attatched” I said. He cradled my face “No, I want to know you for a long time” he said and we rolled into a mushroom ecstasy induced coma.